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22 January 2004 @ 01:18 am
5 minutes later...  
So Lyra says to me, "Nifra, can I ask you for something?" and quite honestly y'all, when it's in my power to do something for this woman, I'm a' gonna do it, because she spoils. me. rotten. So then she says to me: "I want you to tell me what happens five minutes after that the last Clark/Lex scene in Asylum."





Over his shoulder, it looks like the mansion’s something brand new, something bigger than it ever was. Lex is standing by the front door, hands in his pockets, and when Clark waves reflexively, Lex just nods. He watches as Clark walks to his parents’ old truck, and doesn’t go inside until Clark turns the key, and starts slowly down the long black driveway. Clark moves slowly, pretty much on autopilot the whole time – he brakes as he waits for the gate to open, he turns the wheel and turns out onto the road, and what he’s thinking about is the small patch of skin over the top of his collar. He’s thinking about how Lex’s breath felt there, tiny wisps of air combing over his skin, like little breezes. Tiny tradewinds or something – warm, and gentle.

And maybe it’s a little strange that right now *that’s* what Clark’s thinking about; not what Lex had said, or the way he’d smiled, or the fact that he hadn’t remembered *anything*, and not even the way it feels like Clark’s sinking into something thick, and mean, and filled with sharp edges because right now? Right now Clark’s really *alone*.

But that’s not why he pulls over to the side of the road. That’s not why he rests his forehead against the steering wheel and presses his eyes shut. It’s because even now, even with all this – all the rest of these things that swirl and rage and threaten to pull Clark apart – he still wants Lex so much. Maybe more, now, to tell the truth. Clark wraps one arm around his waist, his fingers landing low on his back like Lex’s did, and he raises the other hand to the side of his neck. To the place where he’d felt Lex breathing, where Lex’s breath had hit him. He curls his palm over it, and lets out a shuddering breath of his own, and he doesn’t think about anything more than how warm Lex’s body is against his and how Lex’s eyes looked in the streams of stained light.



It seems that drabble-type things are the only way back to my Clark. And so I do it. One small drabble at a time.
 
 
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the opposite of batman: clark kentpearl_o on January 22nd, 2004 07:16 am (UTC)
Mmm. I do love your Clark, honey.
pure FORESHADOWING: absolut!nifra_idril on January 23rd, 2004 06:02 pm (UTC)
*gropes Clark* I mean...wait. Thank you. Right. That's what I meant to say...*G*
Anne: CLex Asylum by Smallcondotobyfan on January 22nd, 2004 02:36 pm (UTC)
He’s thinking about how Lex’s breath felt there, tiny wisps of air combing over his skin, like little breezes. Tiny tradewinds or something – warm, and gentle.

Oh God, this is just so, so...I can't find the words. It just makes me feel really warm and happy.
pure FORESHADOWING: Bearded Clark (ratcreature)nifra_idril on January 23rd, 2004 06:01 pm (UTC)
*hugs* Good, we like you warm and happy.
torontocanucktorontocanuck on January 22nd, 2004 03:08 pm (UTC)
Oh my ...
... that hurt. Poor Clark.:o(

Okay, so does this mean that Clark managed to get Lex out of the asylum? I'm sorry but I've missed most of last year's eps and all of this year's. Studying in the UK at the moment w/o access to a TV. *pout*

Can you find yourself back to a CLex w/ sap? Please, pretty please with a cherry on top of a cuddled CLex.:o)

Hugs,
noelle
P.S. Lookie, lookie, I finally got myself an Lj and a CLexy icon ... I'm sooooo beyond addicted now it's become a little worrisome. Think I need help? *G*
pure FORESHADOWING: broken supermannifra_idril on January 23rd, 2004 06:00 pm (UTC)
Re: Oh my ...
Clex with sap, eh? *laughs* Dude, if I could I would. Seriously. I just...the hurt! The lies! *manic hand gestures*

But they're still damned pretty, aren't they?

Anyway, as for your question: Lex gets out of the Asylum. Eventually.

And...well...if you're addicted...what does that make *me*? *wink*
torontocanucktorontocanuck on January 23rd, 2004 08:33 pm (UTC)
Re: Oh my ...
Okay I'm going to play devil's advocate here, b/c I love my Clark. But, really, there was nothing else Clark could have done. It wasn't a choice he should have had to make to begin with. I think we're all forgetting that he's still a teenager here, a teenager who has had to take on the responsibility of saving the lives of everyone and anyone w/in a ten mile radius. Kids his age worry about acne, boys, girls and deadlines for assignments, and me getting in to med-school, but him, he's concerned w/ saving the lives of those nearest and dearest to him. On a daily basis. It's got to be hard. As for the lies. Everyone lies at some point in their lives, Clark's are just more necessary than the white lies we've been taught. Like never comment on great-uncle John's toupee. I'm sure it hurst just as much to say them as it is for Lex to hear them. But some things can't be helped. The two of them are just going to have to meet at some middle-point. B/c I love Lex, but I love him when he's Clark's Lex. If you know what I mean by that. Trust is earned and Lex, Lex isn't always ... sane isn't the word I'm looking for, more like ... constant. He's got the potential to act harshly w/o thought when he's hurt and that's dangerous for someone like Clark, who can be hurt in so many different ways. But at the same time, when he loves, it's to a degree that's incomparable by anyone. Which is why it makes it hard for die-hard Superman fans like myself to feel anything but compassion and care for this tortured soul.
Okay, breathe. I'm sorry, got a little carried away there. Could I possibly bribe you then. If I offer a little amateurish fluff, could it possibly push you to supply me w/ some of your veteran and thus high-quality sap? :o)

Hugs,
noelle:o)
P.S. Yes, well, you are an enabler of my addiction so I've considered you beyond hope, I'm just wondering if I'm reaching that state too and if so ... "Help!". *G*
torontocanucktorontocanuck on January 23rd, 2004 08:34 pm (UTC)
Re: Oh my ...
Okay I'm going to play devil's advocate here, b/c I love my Clark. But, really, there was nothing else Clark could have done. It wasn't a choice he should have had to make to begin with. I think we're all forgetting that he's still a teenager here, a teenager who has had to take on the responsibility of saving the lives of everyone and anyone w/in a ten mile radius. Kids his age worry about acne, boys, girls and deadlines for assignments, and me getting in to med-school, but him, he's concerned w/ saving the lives of those nearest and dearest to him. On a daily basis. It's got to be hard. As for the lies. Everyone lies at some point in their lives, Clark's are just more necessary than the white lies we've been taught. Like never comment on great-uncle John's toupee. I'm sure it hurst just as much to say them as it is for Lex to hear them. But some things can't be helped. The two of them are just going to have to meet at some middle-point. B/c I love Lex, but I love him when he's Clark's Lex. If you know what I mean by that. Trust is earned and Lex, Lex isn't always ... sane isn't the word I'm looking for, more like ... constant. He's got the potential to act harshly w/o thought when he's hurt and that's dangerous for someone like Clark, who can be hurt in so many different ways. But at the same time, when he loves, it's to a degree that's incomparable by anyone. Which is why it makes it hard for die-hard Superman fans like myself to feel anything but compassion and care for this tortured soul.
Okay, breathe. I'm sorry, got a little carried away there. Could I possibly bribe you then. If I offer a little amateurish fluff, could it possibly push you to supply me w/ some of your veteran and thus high-quality sap? :o)

Hugs,
noelle:o)
P.S. Yes, well, you are an enabler of my addiction so I've considered you beyond hope, I'm just wondering if I'm reaching that state too and if so ... "Help!". *G*
What the hell is up with the mummy?!: d is for gorey and also dammitcarlserialkarma on January 22nd, 2004 03:12 pm (UTC)
You know, for the longest time I just couldn't bring myself to read any Shattered/Asylum fic of any kind, but I think, like you with Clark, little drabbles are a good way back into it.

And this was lovely. I loved the details--Clark doing everything slowly, the sequence of events so precisely mapped out, the little movements and gestures are everything here.
pure FORESHADOWING: Deathnifra_idril on January 23rd, 2004 05:58 pm (UTC)
Baby steps, dude, baby steps. *grins* I'm glad you enjoyed this. Drabbles are becoming strangely addictive to write.
Adoable Frunklyra_sena on January 22nd, 2004 10:11 pm (UTC)
ahhhh, thank you darlin! This is wonderful. Exactly how I expected Clark to be. Hurting and lonely. Gah. The way he just wants Lex's breath to stay on his neck forever...the way that's all Clark can think about in this swirl of emotions. *hugs you tight*

pure FORESHADOWING: Diana! (ratcreature)nifra_idril on January 23rd, 2004 05:57 pm (UTC)
Exactly how I expected Clark to be. Hurting and lonely

Dude, it so breaks my heart to say that....Clark's going to be that a lot. And we're just starting to see why on the show. *curls up in your lap* Make the sad go away!
Kim: Oh dear. [thefakeheadline]simplelyric on January 23rd, 2004 01:50 am (UTC)
That's so beautiful, and the tone is so ... appropriately fragile.
pure FORESHADOWING: fabio!clarknifra_idril on January 23rd, 2004 05:56 pm (UTC)
Heh -- I think 'fragile' is potentially the best word to describe the Clark we see at the end of Asylum. He projects solidity, certainly, but that's just becuase he's so...big. (Great hulking mountain of a human being, TW is) But look at his face? Look at his eyes? He's just this huge shell thing. It breaks me. *le sigh* Anyway, I'm glad you enjoyed it!
Sarahgiddyfangirl on January 24th, 2004 04:05 am (UTC)
Mmmmmmm. *sniffle* I can just see this, his pain and loneliness and love; you give good Clark.
pure FORESHADOWING: Cheekynifra_idril on January 25th, 2004 01:17 am (UTC)
*tips hat* Thank 'ee kindly, ma'am. I do try. *grin*
Thistle: lost&found cap from oxoniensisthistle90 on January 27th, 2004 12:03 am (UTC)
Oh, beautiful. The self-hug was so poignant. Just brings the pain of that ending right back.

Also, hi. I've been admiring your writing for a while and am going to add you to my friends list.