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12 April 2004 @ 09:56 pm
Procrastinate NOW!.  
It's like Apocalypse Now, but with less Marlon Brando and more me sitting in the library staring in the face of terror ie: deadline. So! Have some Nif-thoughts:



Okay, let me begin this by saying: OMIGOD I LOVE THIS SHOW. I really, really do and I have to wait until *January* to find out what happens after that cliff hanger of a season finale?! Gah! Bear in mind that I've just seen this epi so my thoughts? Not much with the coherent or organized. Just pretty much blurted out.

Also,I have to say that as I watched that episode I was utterly riveted. I think the scene which struck me the most as just being absolutely amazing in every possible way was the scene with Bette and Tina in the shower. The colors, the composition, the lighting and oh dear *GOD* the acting -- everything was breath taking. Holy Jesus! *hearts her show*

Jennifer Beals has done a truly outstanding job throughout the series playing Bette, and making this melt down utterly inevitable from the very first episode. I mean, that woman is wound *so tight*, and you see that from when she flips out about having a biracial child all the way up to the final scene with her in it here, where she and Tina have that incredibly questionable sex and also: wow. That scene? Was like nothing I've seen before. It was amazing and troubling and just plain *great*. There were *so many* power dynamics going on in that bed that I don't even know where to start, and Bette the whole time is whispering 'I love you'. I mean, dear sweet God.

But what was really great about that scene is that it wasn't just Bette freaking out -- though she did, of course -- it was Tina. And Tina's been in a pressure cooker just as much as Bette has. From episode one, their relationship has been subtly on the rocks, and Tina knows it. And on top of that she's been coping with 1) trying to get pregnant, 2) being pregnant and not having Bette be there for her, and then 3) losing the baby. I mean, she cried, sure, but she never really seemed to *deal* with it. Which is why I wasn't surprised by the sheer *violence* of her reaction to Bette cheating on her. I mean, girl's got *anger* that she hasn't dealt with, and of course it comes out on Bette.

And the dynamics between those two actresses -- blow me out of the water. They play off each other *amazingly*. Bette's sadness and Tina's anger and both of their need just, like, snowballed into that incredible scene that made me uncomfortable to watch and yet was at the same time erotic. It wasn't rape, but it wasn't really kosher either. It did what the show, Provocations, was supposed to do, as Bette described it. It made me uncomfortable and it made me think, and wow, is that good television.

Also: I hate Candace with the fire of a thousand blowtorches on a thousand suns and I hope that something she's building falls on her little homewrecking head. The End.

And, shallow PS: What the hell was Tina wearing to Provocations? A maternity dress? I mean, really, dude...

Oh, and speaking of the shallow-clothing-commentary: Jenny, sweet pea? Can you *not* wear a burlap sack as a shirt? K, thanks, bye!

So, let's talk Jenny for a minute, also. I think that this episode was incredibly redemptive for her. By the end of it, when she was sitting there playing monopoly with Robin and her Manatee Man (who, btw? Is not cute!), I really liked her, albeit cautiously. I think that the thing with Jenny is that she doesn't even know how to relate to people if sex isn't a part of the equation. I know we've all been saying all along that she's a crazy person (and she's been saying it, too), but I think that she legitmately does have real issues regarding sex. In fact, every sex scene she has makes me uncomfortable because of the sheer *fierceness* of Jenny's expressions. When she started to cry up against the seal tank (also: wtf? seals=aphrodisiac suddenly?), I wasn't surprised at all. In fact, it's as though I've been waiting for her to do that all season long.

But as I said before -- Jenny doesn't know how to relate to people she isn't fucking. That's why she had that attempt on my girl (aka Dana), which was one of the funniest things I've ever seen on TV, btw. The final scene with the monopoly and all shows her trying to have friends, and that's good, but these are people that she's fucked and probably will fuck again. Her whole demeanor -- the cagey wildness that she has, the need for attention, the almost nymphomaniacal attitude toward sex, and her insecurity all make me wonder if her sexual history includes abuse of some kind. Also, did she admit to Manatee Man that she cut herself? Because I feel like she did.

Oh, God, and Shane! Oh, honey. Her first love, and a tragic one, of course. Shallow alert: that girl is such a fucking rockstar. She's so hot/cool. Love. It. Okay, back on thinking track now, but of *course* things with Sherri didn't work out. And props to Rosanna Arquette for playing that character *to the hilt*. She was amazing in that scene between them at Provocations -- as was Kate Moennig. And I love that the very things that interested Shane in Sherri were the things that pulled the relationship apart -- to whit, her sheer unattainability, the things that made her 'out of Shane's league'. And God, does that character suddenly break your heart or what?

But what I think was great is how *young* Shane is, and we really see it here for the first time. In the way that she lashes out at Alice, and the way she has these hugely idealistic notions of what Sherri will and will not do, and all like that. (And trust me, I catch the irony of *me* saying that someone who's 25 is young, don't think I don't.)

What really breaks my heart about the Shane-arc is this: she spends the night alone after Sherri like, rips her heart out of her chest, puts it in the blender and hits frappe. If ever there was a time when a girl needed to be surrounded by her friends? It was then. Instead, Shane goes out on her own. But then, who would she really turn to -- everyone else was busy.

New OTP alert: Kit/Ivan. I *heart* Ivan. I want to make this clear: I think Ivan is amazing. *I* would date Ivan. I want Kit to marry Ivan. I want them to run away together to Borra Borra where they can make beautiful music on bongo drums and spend all day in tropical splendor or something. Also, Snoop Dogg could be there maybe, just to increase the fabulousity.

Anyway, their whole arc made me just happy, happy, happy. Even if Kit's all conflicted, I'm not. My Ivan/Kit stance is very firmly affirmative. When Ivan sang to Kit in the parking lot after provocations? I had my hand over my mouth the whole time and was 'awwing'. Also, I love that song. I just adored that scene so much! It was so romantic and beautiful and amazing! Yay Kit/Ivan!

NOW! Onto the best for last: Dana. Dana has been my favorite character since episode one, and continues to be and it's no wonder that she decided to marry Tanya because girl's insecurity? Sky high. But Mr. Piddles! *weeps and staps Tanya-bitch* Anyway, the whole funeral for Mr. Piddles was hysterical and wonderful. Tanya continues to make me want to claw my own eyes out whenever she's on screen because a) she's annoying, b) I hate her, c) she's not right for my Dana, and d) she impedes my OTP which, by the way? Totally called it in the first episode *thank you very much*. Alice/Dana, baby. All. The. Way.

I recognize that this could be a bad relationship, but largely? I feel like it could be wonderful and the best thing ever, and *will be* if a) Alice doesn't freak out and b) Dana dumps Tanya like, yesterday. And I think that Alice was *amazing* in this episode. Just, amazing, even though she wasn't in very many scenes. When she got to Dana's and helped her plan the funeral? It was wonderful.

And Marina was in this episode, too. For like, ten seconds. I don't like Marina. I really haven't for a while now, and I think that they're writing her out, which is good because largely she's just been a petulant, European child for a while.

Oh! And I like that Tim got to blow up. The boy *deserves* it. I love Tim. I always have, and I always will, and even if he did act kind of like a thirteen year old boy at Provocations (and btw? this whole Trish nonsense *has* to stop, Tim, sweetie), I think that he's largely handled the Jenny thing with a lot of grace. Much better than I would have, in his place.

So. Yes. I *love* my show. Next season they're going to have to deal with a lot, here. I think the storylines that are going to be clearest are a) the fallout from the Bette/Tina disaster, and b) the Kit/Ivan thing which will, inevitably, end badly but for right now I can hope. I think Alice and Dana could really go either way, but
the ride will be entertaining like whoa. I fear the Shane story line from the bottom of my toes, by the by, because, like, where do they go from here? Is she going to become a jaded hard drinker/drug user? Will she try swearing off women? I mean, really, I just don't know what could happen with her, but of course it won't be anything good and I only want good things for my Shane. And, plus, all of those possibilities? Much with the cliched.

Now, I wonder about Jenny, and I look forward to seeing what happens with her, but I swear to God I don't ever want to have to deal with her writing ever again. She just...*covers face with hands*. I wonder if Marina is going to try to court her back, and I hope Marina doesn't manage to. I want to see more of Jenny's history, more of her dealing with her sex-related issues, too.

And I wonder what they're going to do to Tim, or if he'll even be around, and in my heart of hearts, I want for him to fuck Brian Kinney. But then, I want everybody to fuck Brian Kinney, so no surprise there. *grins*
 
 
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happyminion on April 12th, 2004 08:56 pm (UTC)
This is like, the best L Word post ever. *dies* I was laughing and nodding and reliving the episode, but mostly I was loving me some Nif.

Her whole demeanor -- the cagey wildness that she has, the need for attention, the almost nymphomaniacal attitude toward sex, and her insecurity all make me wonder if her sexual history includes abuse of some kind.

I totally agree! I think it finally pinged for me last week when she said she had her first sexual experience at age thirteen. And how daring and bold she was then, even. She just *did* it, even though it was strange. I was thinking man, Jenny's *never* been right. And it interests me, because it makes a lot of sense with that compulsive behavior we see now. Also, if a girl that young is so drastically out of step with what Trapeze Artist Girl was doing at thirteen (going to her first "teen" party)--I'm pretty sure that contrast was there for a reason. I wouldn't be surprised if we don't get some painful revelation from her next season. Afterall, there must be Jenny drama!

I want Kit to marry Ivan. I want them to run away together to Borra Borra where they can make beautiful music on bongo drums and spend all day in tropical splendor or something. Also, Snoop Dogg could be there maybe, just to increase the fabulousity.

Bahahahaha. *loves you lots* That's awesome, man. That's hysterical, and I'm loving Ivan, too! He totally wooed *me*, and there was serious indecision in Kit's eyes at the end, there!

I was fascinated by Tim's reactions to Jenny fucking girls and Jenny fucking guys. I just give mad props to Eric's performance this year. If you check out my meta on the ep, you'll see that I'm fascinated with how he fell into their laps, because Tim's given one of the best overall performances on the show. He's taken Tim to gentle, good man places and scary, bad man places and he's done so with this mingled fragility and rock solidness that leaves me in awe. If they don't find something worthy for him to do next season, I'll cry. Because I love my trainwreck boy.

My best thoughts for Shane is that she'll go back to life as usual, like nothing happened and refuse to talk about it/deal with it. That way someone has to drag it out of her eventually. I really don't see her falling for someone again, and opening herself up like that, *unless* it's one of the group, so I have hopes for *my* OTP of Shane/Alice. Maybe. Someday. Come on! They'd have amazingly passionate arguments about snooping vs. minding your own business.

So. Now what do we do? *watches calender*. Oh wait, SV this Wednesday, yay!

And check out my icon. Tanya *so* killed Mr. Piddles, I'm right with Alice on that.
pure FORESHADOWING: absolut!nifra_idril on April 12th, 2004 09:17 pm (UTC)
Dude, *hugs you*. It's kind of sad, but I was sitting there watching the L-word thinking, "Ohmigod I wonder what Wendi is thinking about this."

Not only did Tanya kill Mr. Piddles, as far as I'm concerned? She's working on killing Dana's spirit and also the spirit of everyone who watches the show? Tanya = antichrist? Perhaps.

*hates on Tanya*

Also, if a girl that young is so drastically out of step with what Trapeze Artist Girl was doing at thirteen (going to her first "teen" party)--I'm pretty sure that contrast was there for a reason. I wouldn't be surprised if we don't get some painful revelation from her next season. Afterall, there must be Jenny drama!

Okay, a) I'd say Jenny *is* drama. *laughs* Ain't no way that she's going to be able to exist in a drama-less world...she needs it for her *cough* writerly existence. *grins and rolls eyes* b) The whole disparity between her and Am I Laura Dern? (Robin) makes me think even more seriously about the possibility/probability that Jenny has a history that includes abuse. I worry that the show may drop that as a bomb later -- what I'd like to see would be a slow unraveling of it, the way they've slowly unraveled Jenny and sex by first showing us the way she uses it with Tim as a kind of distraction, then making it almost violent as she tries to prove to herself that she isn't gay, or that she's over Marina, or that she's attractive, and then letting her break down as she cries.

Also, I want Jenny to not wear ugly clothes anymore, but that's largely unrelated.

My Kit/Ivan prediction? They'll be together for a while, and be happy, then her son will come into play or something like that and Kit will freak out and break up with him. And that will break my Ivan-lovin' heart. I so loved that scene. I need me an Ivan-icon. With the hat.

I've got this thing for hats. I can't explain it. I think I was a milliner in a past life or something.

And Tim...yeah, I definitely agree with you about Tim. He's probably one of the most consistently well done characters, so next year, he better get something. But I feel like what's going to happen is a crushing of his soul via Trish-relations. *sighs* And I really fear it.