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11 August 2004 @ 02:32 am
Paintin' the town red  
Item 1: Today on Names I'm Glad I Don't Have:

Winter Musgrave
Jebediah Pose
Trudy Wilcome


*thanks parents profoundly and deeply for having the sense God gave a chicken not to name her any of those things*

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Item 2: Today on Stupid Nifra Tricks:

I'm at work, changing light bulbs.

Now, with me, you know that things are already a little dangerous due to the proximity of me and ladders, and breakable things. It's a dicey situation, what with my utter and sheer inability to have any form of grace/competence at moving at all.

Let's add to it, me being a total retard, and dancing around like a monkey while doing so.

Oh, yes. You see where I'm going, don't you?

Anyway, I was using the light bulb as a maraca.

I smashed it against the desk. Natch.

Someone walked into the room at just that point, and found me staring, open mouthed in shock at the broken thing in my hand and all the glass all over the floor.

You can imagine how hard they laughed.

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Item 3: Today on Nifra Thinks Too Hard:

I love these boys -- as I love all my boys and girls -- but I can't get behind the fuzzy cuddly puppy love thing that so many people seem to feel is appropriate to them when they're all growed up.

Now, I love me some happy!boys. You wouldn't know it to look at my fic, for the most part, but I do. But it seems to me like the popular fandom trope of a happy ever after period with these two during the stretch of time between PoA and OotP is a fallacy.

Cuz, dig it: Ain't no way that they can just snap their fingers at all the time and hurt and loss between them. Sure, Sirius didn't do it, but that doesn't make it any easier for Remus to let himself let go of everything he's built around himself. Because, see, now Remus knows what he stands to lose if he loses Sirius again -- which I think you can arguably say he didn't, previously -- and plus, hey! Loverboy thought *he* was the bad guy? WTF, mate?

I would submit to you, my dulcet darlings, that instead the probability here is this: they'll be too careful with one another, even if they do get back together. It won't *feel* like anything, because they'll be too busy tip toeing around feelings. And to chance the men in front of them for the men they lost? Scary enough to make the both of them clam up, and both of them have reason to be tight as a drum anyway.

I am not verbalizing myself as well as I possibly could, but what it boils down to is that I think that the happy ever after period with these two is the time between they get together post The Trick and pre-Lily/James death and Sirius Suspicions.

I'm not saying they don't love each other. Boy howdy do they. Any fool could tell you that -- and hey, one just did! *wink* But! What I am saying is, that the mitigating factors with these men -- tonight anyway -- seem to me to be far to huge to overcome when they meet again in the middle of their lives.

This is not to say that I don't/won't read (or hypothetically write in my head) fics where they're lovey in that time period. I feel like you can be lovey and vaguely unsatisfied with your relationship all at once.

Oh the gray areas of human emotion. How I love you.

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Item 4: A Wish List:

Horatio/Archie
Lilah/Desire
IOAN GRUFFUDD JUST FOR ME OHMYGOD MY CRUSH ON HIM HURTS ME IT IS SO INTENSE!!!!!!!!!
Rayk/Fraser
Sam/Josh
Chloe/Lana
Gay!Fred

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Item 5: Girls on Girls:

Femmeslash. I love it. I wonder why it's treated like the red headed step child of slash fandom, sometimes. I love pearl_o's post about this issue, and have been ranting/raving to people for the past couple of weeks over how much I wish there was more femmeslash and don't understand why there isn't.

I could be profound about this, but it's late, I'm tired, and largely impatient with this post at this point as it -- like the fics in my head -- is refusing to write itself without my input. At a later date, perhaps I shall posit some theories on this topic. Then again, maybe I'll just post Nifra Sue instead.
 
 
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Adoable Frunklyra_sena on August 11th, 2004 06:23 am (UTC)
... wait. Your name isn't Jebediah? Shit, dude.


peeps wanna see peeps boink: deathmusesfool on August 11th, 2004 06:47 am (UTC)
Lilah/Desire

Have you mentioned this around Fox? Or JennyO?

'Cause I'm sure they'd be happy to oblige.

I still need to write Mal-Despair. Sigh.
when she smiles it's like a revelation: Michelle Williams - Hot Chicks Readfox1013 on August 11th, 2004 01:22 pm (UTC)
*whispers*

I've never read Sandman.


*hides*
peeps wanna see peeps boink: deliriummusesfool on August 12th, 2004 07:26 am (UTC)
I am shocked, SHOCKED at this glaring ommission in your education.

Hie thee to the library and start reading them! Or at least add it to your Amazon wishlist.
the opposite of batmanpearl_o on August 12th, 2004 08:58 pm (UTC)
FOX.

*glares*

You'd like it. Really. There's dream libraries and brilliant stories and amazingness and just enough lesbians to keep things nice.
when she smiles it's like a revelation: Snugfox1013 on August 11th, 2004 01:22 pm (UTC)
You could write Nifra Sue with femslash!

*helps*
Spatzspatz on August 11th, 2004 10:10 pm (UTC)
I think that the happy ever after period with these two is the time between they get together post The Trick and pre-Lily/James death and Sirius Suspicions.

I have to disagree with you here. Maybe I've read too many stories dealing with post-Trick S/R tension, but I truly believe that The Trick damaged Remus' trust in Sirius. He betrayed Remus' secret to the one person in the school with the most desire to see Remus gone. He nearly made Remus a *murderer*. I've always thought that that was where the suspicions began about Sirius: proof existed that he could do such a cruel, dangerous thing out of irrational hatred.

Part of the appeal of S/R for me is The Doomed Feeling. Except for AUs like Stealing Harry, they never had a time where they really matched up, unless they got started *very* early in school. The love and friendship is there, but both are so damaged and unused to intimacy (added to the world's interference) that it ends up painful and... I don't know, wistful, somehow.