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26 September 2004 @ 03:30 pm
Round it up.  
All right. So you know those days that you have where you feel really hot and sexy and then all of a sudden you trip and fall and flash that really good looking guy? Yeah, well, today I was feeling the hot, feeling the cute, and then all of a sudden? The button on my jeans popped.

This is either a sign from God that I a) need to lose weight, and do it NOW or b) stop buying cheap ass jeans. I can't tell which. But it concerns me, nonetheless.

Also -- I just read thamiris' really thought provoking post about Fannish Identity as Text . Now, this is something I think about ALL THE DAMNED TIME. It's not a worry, so much, as a curiosity and I think it's something that we're not aware of as we type up these entries/read our flist. Because everything we put into these livejournals is another clue as to the real flesh and blood person typing, and I think that part of the reason there are such misinterpretations is that LJ posts are heavily filtered in terms of what they let through of the author. I mean, I know I think sometimes that I come across as a fandom puppy of sorts -- all wagging tale and bouncing exuberance. Which, you know, is not wholly inaccurate. I am that sometimes. But -- gah. I really don't know where I'm going with this. *laughs* Mainly just this is something that gets me thinking a lot, and I think that LJ freaks me out a great deal of the time, because I can't get an accurate picture of myself or anyone else, really, by reading it.

*furrows brow* I didn't say one thing that made sense in that whole paragraph. Well, *grins* go read Tham's entry -- she says it more eloquently than I can.
Current Mood: fat/cheap
Current Music: Undercover Of The Night - The Rolling Stones
r1cepudding on September 26th, 2004 12:43 pm (UTC)
You mean like, how sometimes people come across as scarily cool, put actually they're enormous adorkables?

*nubbbbbbbb* Buy better jeans. Don't lose weight. I won't stand for the amount of Nif in the world to be diminished!
the opposite of batmanpearl_o on September 26th, 2004 01:09 pm (UTC)
I ... actually try not to think about it, I think, because it gets me really confused and self-conscious. And, really, I'm not sure what the perception of me is like because I can't seperate it from my knowledge of myself, if that makes sense -- like, I have no fucking clue what people are getting or thinking about me. I was going to say "and how it's different from how I really am", but that's problematic, too, isn't it, because I don't know what I mean by "really am". In my head? Around most people in real life? Around really close people in real life? Because it's not like online-me is an artificial self in contrast to my true self, so. Hmm.
BUT HARRY STYLESestrella30 on September 26th, 2004 01:47 pm (UTC)
Oh, I definitely think about this a lot. I think, to some extent, I am in person how I seem on lj. I'm kinda loud and talkative and love fandom and squee over pretty boys and have no problem talking to anybody about anything.

That being said, there's quite often a LOT more going on in my life than I indicate or talk about on my lj, and while it's not fair to say "You don't know things I'm really going through" because I'm not talking about it, it's *also* not fair to think, "Oh, nothing's going on in Nancy's life because if there was she'd talk about it" and think that the loud, talkative, squeeing fangirl is really *all* there is.

There was quite a long post about this sometime back, and I'd love to find the link again, because it was basically saying that yes, this is a lj, which is ultimately *your* journal, but no one, if you want friends or people to read you, will write every little personal thing on it, because that would lead to 10 posts a day about man problems and girl problems and sex problems and eating problems and really, who would want to hear it?

I think you're very lucky if you're able to meet someone *from* the lj persona you have in real life, and form a friendship that goes outside and beyond lj and fandom and all of what everyone else sees on the surface, into who and what you really are. Like how Tracey and I are, and how I'm guessing you and lyra are in real life. If it weren't for who you were online, you wouldn't have gotten to where you are now, but where you are now SO far surpasses what you are on lj to your other 130 friends.

Uhm, wow. *blushes* Sorry about the babbling, this is just something I always find so interesting. (And yay! Maybe I'll get to talk to you about it in person when I SEE you in October!!)
veredusveredus on September 27th, 2004 01:26 am (UTC)
i'd say get better quality jeans. the same thing happend to me four years ago at a hot, new club and i was feeling really sexy and alluring in my pleather pants--what was i thinking--when my button popped off. my date was actually very nice about it and we stayed and danced anyway, but i never trusted pleather after that night.

and as for fannish identity, i think the worry comes when posters believe that their readers assume that that is all the cummulation of your personality and experiences. and i think most people are aware that ljs provide only a small sliver of insight into a person, and certainly is no basis to judge an entire existence.

besides, as we shape our ljs, i think people definitely start setting boundaries of what they feel comfortable saying in lj and what they are not. that becomes more of an issue the larger your friendlist grows and you become aware that you have an audience. but all in all, i think most people don't really dubb others with a certain label so much as having vague impressions of what you are going to get from an lj.

okay, i'm not sure if i even made a point, but i hope you were at least entertained. meh...