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26 September 2004 @ 03:30 pm
Round it up.  
All right. So you know those days that you have where you feel really hot and sexy and then all of a sudden you trip and fall and flash that really good looking guy? Yeah, well, today I was feeling the hot, feeling the cute, and then all of a sudden? The button on my jeans popped.

This is either a sign from God that I a) need to lose weight, and do it NOW or b) stop buying cheap ass jeans. I can't tell which. But it concerns me, nonetheless.

Also -- I just read thamiris' really thought provoking post about Fannish Identity as Text . Now, this is something I think about ALL THE DAMNED TIME. It's not a worry, so much, as a curiosity and I think it's something that we're not aware of as we type up these entries/read our flist. Because everything we put into these livejournals is another clue as to the real flesh and blood person typing, and I think that part of the reason there are such misinterpretations is that LJ posts are heavily filtered in terms of what they let through of the author. I mean, I know I think sometimes that I come across as a fandom puppy of sorts -- all wagging tale and bouncing exuberance. Which, you know, is not wholly inaccurate. I am that sometimes. But -- gah. I really don't know where I'm going with this. *laughs* Mainly just this is something that gets me thinking a lot, and I think that LJ freaks me out a great deal of the time, because I can't get an accurate picture of myself or anyone else, really, by reading it.

*furrows brow* I didn't say one thing that made sense in that whole paragraph. Well, *grins* go read Tham's entry -- she says it more eloquently than I can.
Current Mood: fat/cheap
Current Music: Undercover Of The Night - The Rolling Stones
the opposite of batmanpearl_o on September 26th, 2004 01:09 pm (UTC)
I ... actually try not to think about it, I think, because it gets me really confused and self-conscious. And, really, I'm not sure what the perception of me is like because I can't seperate it from my knowledge of myself, if that makes sense -- like, I have no fucking clue what people are getting or thinking about me. I was going to say "and how it's different from how I really am", but that's problematic, too, isn't it, because I don't know what I mean by "really am". In my head? Around most people in real life? Around really close people in real life? Because it's not like online-me is an artificial self in contrast to my true self, so. Hmm.