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16 November 2004 @ 01:29 am
I may be an alien.  
Okay, so here's the thing: I take everything at face value. I mean, I really do. This doesn't make me naive, but it also means that I'm just not suspicious. If someone says something to me, I don't try to think of what it really means. I more or less just accept it, and go on with my life.

Because that's how I operate. I say what I mean, like 95 times out 100. Sometimes I couch it in as diplomatic terms as possible, but I always feel weird about that and then end up blurting out my raw opinion like so much word vomit.

I figure that if people want to talk to me, they'll talk to me, and that if they don't they won't. And that's cool, that's the way things should work. What you see is what you get. That's more or less just my assumption about the world more often than not.

And so if you're new to this journal, or if you've been here for a while, let me tell you: this is what you get. I am just this giddy and crazy and cracked out and stressed and weird.

I also want to apologize if I've ever been weird or dismissive to anyone -- or if you've felt that I have been. Because it's really not meant that way. It's *truly* not. I am just -- you know. Easily distracted, crazy, the like. But I'm also really straightforward, and I try to be as honest as I can be. Or, I feel like I do.

Also, there's nothing that's prompted this. I've just been thinking for a while, and I feel weirdly like my personality is kind of oddly unsuited for LJ and AIM and that kind of thing. I am a dish best served in person. But, yes -- I just wanted to say that. So, you know. Your PSA is over, back to your regularly scheduled whatevers.
Current Mood: contemplativecontemplative
Current Music: My Beautiful Defence-Thea Gilmore
Janet F. Caires-Lesgold: huh?jfc013 on November 18th, 2004 08:53 pm (UTC)
Did you post-date this? Is something screwy with the clock on your P.C.? Or is it just still Tuesday in your world?

And weird is always fine in my book! *hugs*
pure FORESHADOWING: Bobcatitude!nifra_idril on November 18th, 2004 09:32 pm (UTC)
Oh it's definitely still Tuesday in my world. My world is a world of perpetual Tuesdays.

But yeah, I think my LJ dates are off somehow. I don't know why or how, and I certainly don't know how to fix it (Me? Fix something? HAH!), so I'm just gonna go with it for now.

*snugs* Thanks, babe.
Qqe2 on November 18th, 2004 09:07 pm (UTC)
Y'know, this is a really good thing to've done, and I may steal it. LJ shares with email the distinct disadvantage of being entirely without both the vocal cues phone conversations proffer and the visual ones present in face-to-face encounters. Contextualizing oneself for e-friends takes an interesting - and, I think, viable - step towards alleviating that problem. Go you.

This also sort of explains why I still have no idea what you thought of either of the ficlets I wrote for you...;-)

In re not writing the overdue paper: ::snugs you and feels your pain::
pure FORESHADOWING: broken supermannifra_idril on November 18th, 2004 09:38 pm (UTC)
*nods* I think it's important to contextualize. Because it's very, very hard a lot of times to make get a bead on someone through LJ or AIM -- esp. if they, like me, have the attention span of a gnat, and a somewhat unfortunate habit of just blurting out whatever comes to mind as they do five million hundred things at once (I swear to God I was an octopus in a past life -- I keep trying to pretend that I have like, eight arms or something when sadly there are just the two).

About the drabbles, babe -- I am so sorry. I wrote you three emails that bounced, and then I got frustrated and was like, "Okay. I'm going to wait a while before emailing again" which is something that I do which is maybe not for the best. But it was that or kill everything in sight, and so I opted for the former rather than the latter. I am so sorry if you feel like I've been ignoring you or that I don't appreciate the ficlets because I do. I really, really do. You're a good writer, hon, and I want to read more of your work and I just -- am an asshole. And I'm sorry. *snugs you* I really am.

Tiny Timmy Tokyo: blues bros - 104 miles to chicagoslodwick on November 18th, 2004 09:52 pm (UTC)
I love you, no matter what you say, so nyeah!!

Or... something.

*is a freak*
pure FORESHADOWING: Clarknifra_idril on November 18th, 2004 11:54 pm (UTC)
Awww! I love you too! *throws self at you and clings*
Erika aka I'm Cute!: almost as good as slash ficgraysong on November 18th, 2004 10:29 pm (UTC)
I think we are all "a dish best served in person". There's no way our true personalities could come through ... but I do think the honest and straightforward, excitable and crazy personality is BEST suited for this sort of thing.

Or at least, those are ones I like best to read ... *wink*
pure FORESHADOWING: brad sexnifra_idril on November 21st, 2004 05:55 pm (UTC)
Aww! Thank you, hon! *snugs you* And I think it's right -- we are all best served in person. *snugs you again*
when she smiles it's like a revelation: Snugfox1013 on November 19th, 2004 01:00 am (UTC)

Well, I did, for a while, based on having only met you online, think you were psychotic.

But then I met you, and that was proven true, so it was all cool.

*snugs the you tons*

Besides, you'd be no fun if you were more normal. We like you like this. Weird quirks and all.

P.S. How much can I not hear "word vomit" without thinking of Mean Girls? SO MUCH.

*hugs once more for good measure*
pure FORESHADOWING: big pimpin'nifra_idril on November 21st, 2004 05:55 pm (UTC)
The word vomit was just for you. *snugs you more*
lynnmonsterlynnmonster on November 19th, 2004 03:00 am (UTC)
I am a dish best served in person.


You're a dish, all right!

*beams at you*
pure FORESHADOWING: giles mack daddynifra_idril on November 21st, 2004 05:57 pm (UTC)
*giggles and throws self at you* Aww! You done turned me pink! *smooches*
too many shiny glitterlifeinwords on November 19th, 2004 04:38 am (UTC)

I don't secretly think you're dismissive or dishonest or insane. Just so's ya know. The insanity's right on the surface, right? That's superfun!

I feel weirdly like my personality is kind of oddly unsuited for LJ and AIM and that kind of thing. I am a dish best served in person.

Oh, me too. Me too.
pure FORESHADOWING: hot ioan - angryhamsternifra_idril on November 21st, 2004 05:58 pm (UTC)
*nods* I think it's true for most people, really. But, thank you, hon. *snugs you*
too many shiny glitterlifeinwords on December 8th, 2004 07:04 pm (UTC)
See what happens when I don't get my comments? I miss Nifra snugs!

Woe, alas, alack!

*snugsback extra hard for belatedness*

And you're welcome. We all need to hear it.