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23 May 2005 @ 04:31 pm
This is a total emergency.  
I have broken my ability to write. I don't know how. I don't know when. All I know is that you say to me, "Nifra, write me something!"

And I'll write: "It was dark." and then spend hours staring at that sentence and trying very hard not to follow it with "And stormy. A dark night filled with stormy darkness. And people. There were people in the stormy darkness."

Then I'll get filled with a very intense hatred for the written word, and pout, and go read things I love, and become despondent.

I am one with the despond. I have hatred and despond. I am swimming through a lake of hatred and despond. This lake is called my writing and I have no floaties to help me swim through it.

Total. Emergency.

It seems like all I want to do lately is write autobiographical essays about the insane things that happen in my life, but that's not what I really *want* want, it's just all I can do.

What do you do when in such a quandry, gentle readers? And why do I feel the need to use the phrase 'gentle reader' incessantly these days? Riddle me that, gentle readers, riddle. me. that.
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teaphile on May 24th, 2005 05:58 am (UTC)
"And stormy. A dark night filled with stormy darkness. And people. There were people in the stormy darkness."

See, you're looking at it the wrong way. Just because that paragraph sucks, doesn't mean the next one will. Or the one after that. Suddenly you're writing good stuff, at which point you go back and cut the sucky stuff.

Or, that's the way it works for me.
mlyn on May 24th, 2005 06:00 am (UTC)
Good point.

Nifra, I say you keep writing no matter what. Write your freaking grocery list in the middle of a fic if you have to...just keep the tool working. Sooner or later it'll get back into the groove.

There are multitudes of writing exercises, too, but I don't know what they are off the top of my head and my writing book is at a different home.
Qqe2 on May 25th, 2005 03:55 pm (UTC)
Thirding this. If autobio's what your brain is fixated on, write it - even if the conscious part of your brain is not fucking in the mood to do so.

Or write randomly. Write directions to somewhere you've never been. Write fic in a universe where the canon is completely unknown - and uninteresting - to you, but where the characters have cool names and extra limbs. Write letters to someone who's pissing someone you know off.

Above all: unless you're the sort of person who responds well to intense and painful internal pressure, lay off yourself already. Obvious obvious obvious but worth repeating anyway: if you wouldn't treat someone else you love like shit when they're stuck, don't do it to yourself.

*hugs you*