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23 May 2005 @ 04:31 pm
This is a total emergency.  
I have broken my ability to write. I don't know how. I don't know when. All I know is that you say to me, "Nifra, write me something!"

And I'll write: "It was dark." and then spend hours staring at that sentence and trying very hard not to follow it with "And stormy. A dark night filled with stormy darkness. And people. There were people in the stormy darkness."

Then I'll get filled with a very intense hatred for the written word, and pout, and go read things I love, and become despondent.

I am one with the despond. I have hatred and despond. I am swimming through a lake of hatred and despond. This lake is called my writing and I have no floaties to help me swim through it.

Total. Emergency.

It seems like all I want to do lately is write autobiographical essays about the insane things that happen in my life, but that's not what I really *want* want, it's just all I can do.

What do you do when in such a quandry, gentle readers? And why do I feel the need to use the phrase 'gentle reader' incessantly these days? Riddle me that, gentle readers, riddle. me. that.
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Qqe2 on May 25th, 2005 03:55 pm (UTC)
Thirding this. If autobio's what your brain is fixated on, write it - even if the conscious part of your brain is not fucking in the mood to do so.

Or write randomly. Write directions to somewhere you've never been. Write fic in a universe where the canon is completely unknown - and uninteresting - to you, but where the characters have cool names and extra limbs. Write letters to someone who's pissing someone you know off.

Above all: unless you're the sort of person who responds well to intense and painful internal pressure, lay off yourself already. Obvious obvious obvious but worth repeating anyway: if you wouldn't treat someone else you love like shit when they're stuck, don't do it to yourself.

*hugs you*