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04 February 2004 @ 10:06 pm
It's...an SV thing -- What She Can Do  
Too long to be a drabble, too short to be a story, really. So I'm calling it a thing. Go with me.

For Lyra.

Lois Lane’s got a reputation for a reason. She’s smart, she’s ruthless, and when it comes to fitting evidence together, she’s damned near psychic. So, really, she’s not sure why it took her so goddamned long to figure it out. And she sure as hell doesn't know who Clark thinks he’s fooling.

She’s seen Casablanca. She knows all about longing looks, and wistful sighs and all that stuff. It’s not something she goes in for much personally, but she knows it when she sees it. Maybe if she’d known to look for it, it would have been clear before, but now -- now that she *knows* it’s hard not to see it, the way Clark just…shuts down when she mentions Lex Luthor.

How his fingers always twitch toward the pictures of Lex that spill out across the file on his desk. How every time they go to a LexCorp press conference, Clark’s eyes get wider, like he can drink Lex in that way. How during their one interview with the man Clark hadn’t said a damned thing, but Luthor’s eyes had been on him the whole time.

The evidence is all there. Clark loves the bastard. Maybe he has since they were kids. Lois isn’t sure, but she’d be willing to put dimes to dollars that Luthor loves Clark back, albeit in that borderline psychotic/sociopathic way of his. She doesn’t think they’ve ever touched each other – she’s pretty damned sure that if they had, Luthor never would’ve given Clark up.

She knows she wouldn’t have.

That’s not the point, though Lois knows she’d be pretty hard pressed to find a point in all this. She knows now, and that should maybe be enough. But for Lois it never is. What she wants to know is why, and how, and when and how long and all kinds of other things that she’d have to ask Clark to find out. And she’s ruthless, but maybe she’s not ready to be that ruthless with Clark. Or herself. She’s not sure she’s ready to listen to Clark tell her how Lex is just misunderstood, or crazy, or how his Dad screwed him over, and she knows she’s nowhere near ready to hear his voice go all soft and concerned when he says Luthor’s first name.

Lois is not in love with Clark, but she knows she could be. Easily. So instead she just sits back. She watches. She wonders if she should do something, say something, because Clark seems so lonely, but then she isn’t sure what the hell she’d do anyway.

Clark and Luthor are stubborn as she is, and if either one of them stepped in and tried to help her ‘fix’ her life, or fix her up (no matter how much she wanted it), she’d fight like hell. She gets it. It makes her feel powerless, but the truth is that in this situation she pretty much is.

So what she does is take Clark out for drinks every time they have a story about Luthor, and she growls at anyone who takes issue with Clark in the bullpen when they’ve been to a press conference. She can’t fix anything, but Lois can give Clark room to put himself back together. Maybe it’s not much, but it’s all she can do.
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pure FORESHADOWING: Diana! (ratcreature)nifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:46 am (UTC)
Catwoman, Wonder Woman and Lois Lane: OTT.

Their apartment would be the most intense place *ever*, you do realize. Lois would have files all over the place, Diana would have a work out area, and Selene would be slinking around trailing whips behind her.

Intense and *hot*.
dolimir_k on February 5th, 2004 03:14 am (UTC)
Very good introspection piece on Lois here. Sweet, with just a tad of wistfulness.


Livia posted a thingy writing thing about character introspection. You should send this in.

pure FORESHADOWING: fabio!clarknifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:47 am (UTC)
Thank you so much, sweetie! *hugs* I'll definitely go check that out.
Anne: Clex Metamorphosistobyfan on February 5th, 2004 03:28 am (UTC)
Aww. Very nice. So wonderfully angsty. *sigh* Those boys break my heart.
pure FORESHADOWING: futilitynifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:48 am (UTC)
That's what they're there for. The breaking of the heart. *sighs and shakes head at the Clex* Meanie pants.
Adoable Frunk: palelightlyra_sena on February 5th, 2004 04:34 am (UTC)
*flails* For me for me! *twirls you*

Thank you baby! I love your Lois so very much, and in this...ummm...'thing', I totally adore how she protects Clark, how she does what she thinks she can to make him less lonely and not hurt so much. And of course she figures it out about Lex and Clark, she's *Lois* for chrissakes. She's so tough and strong, and the glimpse at this tender side of her is so lovely. She's loving Clark the only way she knows she can, and it's enough for her.

*hugs you tight* You're so good to me!
Sarahgiddyfangirl on February 5th, 2004 06:35 am (UTC)
I have a big kink for CLex-from-other-people's-POV, but even if I didn't I would still love this. *hugs Lois*
pure FORESHADOWING: swedish chefnifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:50 am (UTC)
*grins* It is fun to see how other people watch our boys interact, and what they make of it. It's the whole appeal of the unreliable narrator thing. I'm so glad you enjoyed this!
celli on February 5th, 2004 07:20 am (UTC)
Very nice. I love your take on Lois. :)
pure FORESHADOWING: big pimpin'nifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:50 am (UTC)
*grins* Thanks -- I'm pretty attached *cough IN LOVE* myself.
Edmund Crankypants: Bad girlanitac588 on February 5th, 2004 08:06 am (UTC)
Short, but intense thing, Nifra, enjoyed it very much.
pure FORESHADOWING: breathlessnifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:51 am (UTC)
*grins* That's me -- short and intense. I'm glad you liked it!
Kiki: Clex kisslapetite_kiki on February 6th, 2004 01:21 am (UTC)
I adore this thing you wrote! ;-)
Great Lois!
pure FORESHADOWING: wait - dammitcarlnifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:51 am (UTC)
She's such fun, isn't she? *grins and hugs you* Thanks so much!
-_-: classic beautyechoskeleton on February 6th, 2004 01:49 am (UTC)
Ah, angst in it's purest form. While I feel bad for both Lex and Lois, it's Clark who's making me all sniffly. You're wonderful at writing him, even when you're not using his POV. And I really love your Lois as well.
pure FORESHADOWING: absolut!nifra_idril on February 6th, 2004 03:53 am (UTC)
*snugs* Well, we all know that I love me some Clark, so it's so nice to hear you say this. And Lois, ah Lois...there's a character after my own heart (read: she's already got it). Thanks so much, sweetheart!
Nebt_Het: Planet Logonebt_het on February 6th, 2004 07:04 am (UTC)
She’s seen Casablanca.

cracks me up...great job.